Oh the dreams

There is nothing I want more in the world than to be a stay at home mommy. Nothing!  I can't tell you how much I hate leaving the Butterbean for work.  I hate when he spends the weekends away from us so we can work. I feel like I miss out on so much of his life and it completely breaks my heart!

This past weekend  The Mr. had drill in Montgomery, I had to work, and the Butterbean spent the weekend at his grandparents house.  I know he was having a great time!  But when you come home to a completely empty house, no mommy duties, no kisses goodnight, nothing. . . well it's really hard.  I cried.  (It may be the pregnancy hormones)  But I realized how much I wanted to have a normal family life.  One where The Mr. isn't missing on the weekends, where we can do family activities on the weekends, go to church every Sunday as a family, or go visit family on the weekends. 

How could you leave a face like this:

And I can't believe I'll have to leave two precious little faces very soon.   I am so heartbroken.